Josh getting a little psycho on the pumpkin.







Goopey stuff.






Too bad it's not in focus.


Lydia's pumpkin... I carved it.

 
Josh's pumpkin.


My pumpkin... they took about 3 hours to gut and carve. sheesh!


The little devil.




She was so much more outgoing this year trick-or-treating.

She's growing up ;(

Three years... Only three years? It hasn't been more? Less?

Austin Timothy Bandy. March 20, 1990-September 29, 2006.

He was my friend since kindergarten. He was my little boyfriend in 5th grade. He raced motocross, #907. He was rambunctious and lovable.

I wish I was in Ohio. I wish I could drive by his house. I wish I could lay by his grave and talk to him. I wonder what college he would have went to.

I'll never forget.


Like a phoenix ignition
like a crematorium
Like a swelling volition
from the barrel of a gun
From the ashes and the embers
like a rocket I'll ascend
Like a cry gone up for a fallen friend
Like a cry gone up for a fallen..

Like a phoenix ignition
like a crematorium
Like a swelling volition
from the barrel of a gun
From the ashes and the embers
like a rocket I'll ascend
Like a cry gone up for a fallen friend
I'LL ASCEND

Everyday tear down the walls
till cornerstones remain
Coming ONE STEP CLOSER ALL THE TIME
And although we'll never reach perfection ALWAYS PERSIST TO TRY

No regrets, just rebirth
move forward, and ignite.
Incandescent Reinvention
a new renaissance
A NEW FIRE EACH DAY
A NEW FIRE EACH DAY!

Lydia started school on wednesday. She was very excited, and Josh and I are so proud of her being a kindergartner! Unfortunately, her mother did not call her. Not before school, not after school, not the next day, or on her second day of school... Infact her mom has called her this whole week. It's the first week since Josh got custody of her that she didn't have to go back to the maternal side. Josh has her next week too until Friday. Then she's back Sunday.... wow, is she really going to go that long without talking to her daughter? Probably... MAYBE one call this week, we'll see.

I do feel more lonely without Josh being here... I stay the night at his parent's house a few times a week, but it's not the same.

Freya was bleeding a little from her vagina, so I took her to the vet, got some antibiotics. I didn't see any blood for about a week, then this morning I saw a lot of dried blood... Last night I also found a tumor on Steak... My poor girls =(

School is going okay... Not sure about my physics class. My professor is hard to understand, and he's boring, monotone, can't convey ideas, and during lab he just sits at the desk the whole time, or leaves the room.